Horizontal Compatibility

Online dating, at my age, raises questions one does not always anticipate. Some of them, it turns out, are… positional.

Not long ago, a woman on OurTime (a dating site for seniors) recently “liked” my profile. I liked her back and sent a message suggesting that we meet. Then: nothing. Four weeks passed. I ultimately filed the whole thing away under “oh, well.” I admit, I forgot all about her.

But eventually she wrote back.

So then I found myself, somewhat to my own surprise, heading out for my first first date since March 2019. This fact alone felt like an event worth noting.

The meeting itself, at a local Starbucks, went well. More than well, actually. We talked for more than an hour and a half without effort. The conversation had range, some depth, even a bit of spark. At the end, there was a hug that she initiated. Not the standard-issue, socially-prescribed hug, but a long, sustained, quietly-mutual embrace. The kind of physical contact that lingers just enough to suggest possibility.

I drove home thinking, well, that was nice.

The next day, I wrote to say I’d enjoyed meeting her and would be glad to get together again.

Her reply was, and I quote:

“id like to meet again if we spend most of that time hugging. Hmm where would that be possible”

Now, as suggestions go, this was not one I was inclined to reject. I even confessed, in a moment of candor, that I might qualify as a very touch-deprived individual. And so it seemed that we had entered into a mildly flirtatious exchange, one with a surprisingly clear agenda.

But then came the practical question: where does one go to engage in sustained, low-ambiguity hugging?

She thought maybe a park. A blanket. Perhaps a picnic.

And now it is here is where the narrative takes a decisive turn toward the absurd.

I explained, as plainly as I could, that lying on the ground — grass, sand, or any other surface that requires one to interface directly with the planet — is not something my back, hip, and leg nerves are inclined to negotiate well. This was not about getting up afterward. This was about being down there in the first place. So, yep, I had reservations about this idea.

And let’s be clear: we are talking about two 78-year-olds here. The image of both of us gracefully arranging ourselves on a blanket, then remaining there in some extended state of horizontal embrace, begins to feel less like romance and more like a logistical exercise requiring advance planning and possibly the temporary services of a personal aide.

Her response was brief and decisive. Again, I quote:

“Regretfully, if you’re not capable of laying down on a blanket with me, I guess we’re not a match”

And just like that, a door closed.

There is something almost admirable in the specificity, the cleanness, of the rejection. Not conversation. Not compatibility. Not chemistry. Rather: blanket viability.

One imagines her revising her profile to include: “Must enjoy meaningful conversation and prolonged horizontal hugging in outdoor settings.”

Rejection, however it arrives, still has a way of landing, though. And land it did. Not dramatically, but just enough to be noticed, a small shift in the internal weather. And then, as these things tend to do, the storm passed, leaving behind the memory of that unexpectedly good hug.

Thank you, universe, for that.

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Soundtrack Suggestion

And when the night falls, and when the sky falls,
I long for your embrace.
Another daybreak, another heartache,
I long for your embrace.

(“Embrace” — Bee Gees)

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