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Peace Now!

Last year at this time, March 2006, I wrote about the demonstration & march I participated in – in downtown Portland (OR) – an event that marked the third anniversary of the beginning of the war in Iraq. It was both well-intentioned and well-attended, with a crowd of at least 10,000 pouring into the streets to express group discontent with the U.S.’s aggressive conduct around the globe. However, as you recall, I lamented that this gathering of like-minded folks was not really as much a protest as it was a rally, or even a mere social gathering. I expressed my utter dismay that there was no pervasive sense of outrage, an emotion that, undeniably, permeated the anti-war movement during the Vietnam era. Here’s part of my message from last year:

OK: bottom line, here’s what I miss. The outrage. I want us, the American people, collectively, to be incredibly angry about the meaningless large-scale loss of life in a part of the world where we really have no legitimate business. I want us to be incensed about the erosion of our civil liberties. I want to hear of our insistence on being told the truth. I want a gathering of this magnitude to mean something: to be acknowledged as part of a nationwide effort to change the direction of the morally-bankrupt regime in, and agenda that we now have coming from, Washington, D. C.

The reason I’m reporting on this year-old history is that I’m still, here in the Spring of 2007, thinking these same thoughts! And I’m apparently not the only one. David Crary, an Associated Press writer, observes, in a recent article:

America’s current anti-war movement is resourceful and persistent, but often seems to lack the vibrancy of its counterpart in the Vietnam era when protesters burned draft cards, occupied buildings and even tried to levitate the Pentagon.

The primary argument for the differences, of then vs. now, is the lack of a draft. This is a hypothesis that, of course, strikes a chord with me. During Vietnam, the war was entirely personal. Every decision was made in the context of what the consequences would be for my draft classification. When I was a college freshman, for example, the mere dropping of a calculus class during my first semester put me at risk for being cannon fodder in a remote jungle. College students today have an entirely different reality and, for the most part, campuses are extremely tranquil places. Activism, and especially anti-war activism, is not really a part of the current student experience. (Getting a job is the primary deal, I guess.)

But, it’s 2007 and I still show up at protests: as I did last Sunday, this time in downtown San Francisco. The turnout was a huge disappointment for me, however. For, here we are, now four years into this war, and the best crowd that San Francisco could muster was estimated at about 3,000. The San Francisco Chronicle article reporting on the event began:

Calling for an immediate end to the American presence in Iraq, about 3,000 boisterous protesters marched from the Embarcadero through downtown San Francisco to Civic Center on Sunday afternoon.

What the march may have lacked in numbers, it made up for in intensity.

I was there. The numbers seem about right, but I’m not too sure about the “intensity” observation. Yes, some of the speakers from the platform had obvious passion, and spoke from their hearts about the unjustness and ridiculousness of this war, expressing genuine anger about the thousands and thousands of wasted lives. For the most part, though, these folks were ignored. There were no big-name speakers (as I had rather anticipated, given the locale), and during the talks (and subsequent march) most of the “boisterous protesters” were not, really.

What I observed this time reminded me of last year. There were lots of people with cameras (yes, including me, of course), operating in a party-picture mode. Many individuals were popping into the nearby Starbucks and Subway shops (at Justin Herman Plaza, the march’s starting point), soaking up the sunshine while enjoying their favorite latte or sandwich. There were tons of bumper stickers and buttons for sale. And there were a variety of street vendors hawking commercially-made protest signs. In fact, one particularly ambitious young entrepreneur, laden with pre-made signs, was walking among the gathering crowd yelling, “Signs. Placards. Get your signs and placards here.” (What was this? Was I at a ballpark? “Peanuts. Popcorn. Get your hotdogs here.”)

If you can believe it: I saw Girl Scout cookies for sale. And ice cream bars. Sigh…

I guess I missed the really “good stuff” in San Fran this time around, though. During a smaller demonstration, the next day (Monday, March 19), a (truly) more “boisterous” group of activists engaged in some acts of civil disobedience and got themselves arrested. The Chronicle reported:

San Francisco police arrested 57 anti-war activists in the city Monday as demonstrations were held throughout the Bay Area to mark the fourth anniversary of the U.S. war in Iraq .

The bulk of the arrests -- 45 -- were made shortly before 1 p.m. at the intersection of Montgomery and Market Streets, when protesters moved their sidewalk “die-in” to the middle of Market Street.

Blocking noontime traffic, activists sprawled out like war casualties. Some shrouded themselves under sheets with fake blood, and others chose a pose more befitting of a coffin, on their backs with closed eyes and clasping flowers to their chests. None resisted arrest.

Among those escorted to three police vans was a woman in a wheelchair, a woman in a nun’s habit and former Department of Defense official Daniel Ellsberg.

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New Stuff

I’ve surrendered: to the incessant voice in my head, the characteristic symptom of my manifestation of NAS. Yes, I went ahead and purchased one of the two objects of my attention, namely the Nikon D80 camera body. Whoever said that technology advances make our lives simpler?! I’ve also needed to upgrade software packages (PictureProject, Capture NX, Camera Control Pro) to more readily accommodate the new equipment.

Whew! This takes time.

I’ve only taken a few test shots so far. As you have observed, what with all this upgrading going on, I’ve had no time at all to even do a blog entry!

So, just so you know I’m still here, this is one of my test photos taken during yesterday’s excursion to Eugene.

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Keep Healthy & Keep Going

Life is too short. And, for what there is of it, way too hard. My head, my very being, is bursting, is overloaded, right now, with sensory input. My heart is breaking from all the pain I see, from all the tears shed everywhere I turn.

Things are pretty complicated these days. There just are not enough hours in the day; I have several things that I’m needing to attend to, all of quite-high priority. Number one is my health, of course. So, I have my herbs and supplements supplied by my Traditional Chinese Medicine woman. The routine I engage in everyday is quite structured; I have regular breathing exercises and Yoga and meditation practices. And I have sleep and a healthy diet and other stress-management techniques to pursue. I’m very preoccupied with keeping healthy and keeping going.

The results: so far, so good. I’m in much better shape than I was a couple of months ago.

But then, too, there’s the search for a new job. An incredibly high priority. Made necessary by the fact that the work environment I now inhabit is wholly unsatisfactory: that is to say, very unhealthy. And, when I speak of the tears I observe, they are, of course, shed in that place. There’s hardly a day that goes by without someone in my office breaking down — in one way or another. Given the emotionally-unpredictable, spiritually-bankrupt climate, such frequent outcomes are inevitable. Literally every fiber of my being aches for the pain of those I work with; for this ubiquitous suffering of epic proportions.

So much. So unnecessary. So absolutely critical for the health of my soul that I escape.

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Appearances and Judgments

Yesterday, I took a quick, one-day (interview) trip to San Francisco. This involved driving up to the Eugene airport in the morning and then boarding one of United Airline’s small Canadair jets. (And doing the reverse process in the evening, of course.) As I was waiting in the terminal before the trip down, I was doing what I usually do at such times: scoping out the other people in the seating area, wondering why they’re all going where I’m going, and musing about who I’ll be sitting next to (or near) during the flight.

As I was engaged in this speculation, I observed an undeniably-obese woman walking, very slowly, with more of a waddle actually, in my direction. Now, such a sighting is not all that unusual these days, what with our national “obesity epidemic,” but the thing that really attracted my attention was that this individual was coughing with an intensity that I can only describe, with any degree of accuracy at all, as a “death rattle.” It was very deep and pretty scary. As she sat down, fairly close to me, I immediately got up and relocated to a point far-away. Not in my breathing space you don’t, I thought.

Shortly after I moved, I noticed at least three other people get up and use the same avoidance tactic. Let me tell you, this person was having some serious issues, and it was no big secret to anyone even remotely in her vicinity.

It wasn’t long after I had resituated myself, though, that I noticed she had activated a nebulizer, right there in the waiting area, and was attempting to inhale all the medicated steam she could get. Periodically, however, she was forced to remove the mouthpiece portion to engage in yet another coughing jag. Yes, serious, serious stuff going on here.

Just my luck, I thought, that she’ll end up in the seat next to me. (Which would be particularly ironic since I had, at check-in, changed my seat assignment to one at the front of the plane.) Really, I wondered, what would I do if that happened? Would I just sit there, as I had during one trip last spring, when I found myself on a cross-country flight seated next to a woman who reported to me she was very ill and had a temperature of 102? Tell me, what is there to do in these situations where you’re basically trapped and at the mercy of someone who doesn’t have the sense to stay home and not infect the rest of the world?

The moment of truth came when it was time to board the plane. I noticed that she had put away her nubulizer and was standing at the front of the line, perhaps seeking priority-boarding due to her disability. I was far back in the line, in no hurry, having a first-row seat waiting for me. When I got there, it didn’t take long to scan the territory…and to discover that, yes, there she was, directly behind me.

Great. She’ll be hacking the entire trip, spewing her germs directly my way. Yuck. What miserable luck.

But, actually, it wasn’t too long before I started thinking that perhaps I was about to catch a break this time around: for apparently the nebulizer had worked some magic, and she was not coughing any more. Maybe it’ll stay this way? (I asked myself. I hoped to myself.) I guess I’ll just have to wait and see, I decided.

Eventually, after we were in the air, she ended up having a rather extended conversation with the gentleman next to her, and I learned (is this eavesdropping? – how could I NOT have heard this?) that she was a severe asthmatic, that her body had picked this totally inopportune time to have an attack, and that she was quite embarrassed at having had to use the nebulizer right there in the airport. Fortunately for her, the man, a stranger, was totally sympathetic and supported her decision to do whatever she needed to do to take care of herself.

Which is exactly what she needed to hear. What a great thing it was that he was there to say it.

So I, of course, started to examine the assumptions I had made and found that my entire process was really, in all honesty, not very attractive. In this case, I had leapt right into a wholly-narcissistic judgment mode, not really trying to understand at all the suffering that had been going on, right there in front of me. From what I could overhear, she seemed like a rather decent human being, caught in a really tough spot by needing to travel with this particular (probably not-contagious) ailment.

Ahhhh…appearances, and the stories we make up in our heads. They aren’t really “the truth,” are they?

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